The other night after the blizzard,
I had a flashback. Looking out the back window, I noticed soft rabbit curves
silhouetted by moonlight against mounds of newly fallen snow. I stood
mesmerized by a sweet memory of when Charlie was alive. He had padded over to
his water bowl in the middle of the night only to be confronted by a similar
sight. His agitated barking woke me, and I padded over to quiet my bucking,
barking dog. It did cross my mind that if Charlie’s enemy invader rabbit had
been chomping tips of my blueberry bush branches, it would have become my
enemy, too, and this scene might have played out differently. As it was,
however, said rabbit nesting unfazed, calm in indigo moonlight so quieted
me, I pulled a chair over to the window and nestled Charlie in my lap to watch.
There we sat in dark, tranquil silence, wide awake.
What had civilized us—the chair?
Yes, partly. It would be hard to attack anything but a tough steak from a seated position. Sympatico? Probably not.
Though no longer barking his head off, Charlie’s animal instincts were on high
alert; every flattening of the rabbit’s ear, every twitch of the rabbit’s nose
was met with a twitch of Charlie’s ear. He never took his big brown eyes off
his prey. I, on the other hand, simply basked unblinking in sparkling-diamond
snow glow, in the moon’s sapphire illumination of an utterly still world.
So what besides the chair had
deflected our chase? The spell of the moon? No. I think it was a sense of a
privileged connection. Indulge me a dog-mom’s intuition as I surmise that
Charlie knew if he wanted to stay up past his bedtime to watch the rabbit, he
needed to be quiet. My contentment was giving this little silken creature I
loved so much the privilege of prolonging a fleeting pleasure, and in so doing,
receiving the privilege of bathing in blue moonlight with a bunny.
Moments like these cannot be
repeated. They are not like the wonder of catching a snowflake on your tongue
or watching a snowflake’s lacy edges melt into your mitten. Any snowfall makes
this possible, at least for northerners. Southerners, I suppose, might be awed
by a rare snow’s sensations. Besides my moonlit vigil with Charlie, my other
privileged thrills—witnessing a loggerhead turtle laying her eggs, riding high
in a tractor cab to plow a fertile farm field for soybeans, and floating in a
hot air balloon above running deer, to name a few—would be ordinary events for
a naturalist, farmer, or balloon pilot. But for me, those were rare gifts that
quieted my soul.
So if timing and circumstance allow
you to commune with nature; or if a beloved child rests his totally trusting head
on your shoulder; when a spouse whispers “I love you” just before falling asleep
with a smile on his face; when a parent puts her hand on your forearm and
blesses you with “I’m proud of you;” if a friend hugs you, really hugs you; or
when a pet curls up in your lap to watch a rabbit in blue moonlight—let the
warmth wash over you. You can give these moments of pure pleasure in a loved
one or a moment, but you can only treasure receiving them as rare gifts.
Celebrate these gifts, but not by popping a champagne cork; that makes too much
noise. No, pull up a chair. Sit still. Don’t blink. Breathe.